The last two weeks I’ve written about pain, first emotional pain then last week physical pain. It’s already Thursday and normally I have my blogs written and ready to be proofread by Tuesday or Wednesday. The struggle is, this week I am writing about spiritual pain. As I take a deep breath!
The last two weeks I’ve written about pain, first emotional pain then last week physical pain. It’s already Thursday and normally I have my blogs written and ready to be proofread by Tuesday or Wednesday. The struggle is, this week I am writing about spiritual pain. As I take a deep breath! The majority of people have no problem talking about the physical pain they are dealing with, no reservations at all. Sometimes all they do is complain. This hurts that hurts, oh I hurt so much LOL. A lot of people talk about and joke about their emotional pain. Never really taking it serious, joking about their depression to cover it up. It really only gets serious when they are alone. Alone with their thoughts and emotions.
Very seldom do you hear someone talk about their spiritual pain. We don’t want someone else to know that we are spiritually confused or lost. And we definitely don’t want somebody to know what we believe or don’t believe. People don’t want to be judged, ridiculed, and in some countries killed for their beliefs. We so often stay quiet and keep this spiritual battle within ourselves. So often we are confused about our spiritual beliefs, not even understanding the faith we follow. Even when we understand our faith there is a spiritual battle within us between good and evil.
I am not writing this blog to judge or tell somebody else what I think they should believe. But, if you ask me I will surely tell you. And I have no problem sharing with you what I believe. I’m just gonna put down a few thoughts a few of my experiences, a few of my struggles – past and present.
Spiritual pain is so often connected to your emotional pain. The majority of people I have talked to, who are struggling emotionally often are also struggling spiritually. They feel lost and confused and so often they feel hopeless. Going through life feeling they have no hope, no purpose.
Spiritual pain often will have an incredible effect on your ability or inability to handle your physical pain. Last week I spoke of the physical pain my dad was in towards the end of his life. I look back now and realize it was his faith and love for our Lord that kept him strong.
As far back as I can remember, I believe I was dealing with spiritual confusion. Throughout my childhood I blamed God for the pain and suffering my father, family and myself experienced. Up until 17 years ago I carried this anger with me. Now I realize that God didn’t cause the suffering, but he was there to help us through it. But only if we let him.
Growing up I remember my dad telling me that my grandfather was the pastor of a church. My mom sang gospel music and played piano for a gospel quartet, The Blackwood Brothers. Why is it that I have no memory of us as a family ever going to church?
Throughout my childhood I always thought of my dad as a very special, unique person. A very large, outgoing man with the heart of gold and willingness to give a stranger whatever he needed. Never saying no to a person in need. What I do not have is a single memory from the time I was 15 and younger of ever attending church with my dad or mom. After losing two of my older siblings, my brother and my sister, Dad started going to a prayer service and a Bible study with my younger brother. Of course, I was always invited but I had no desire. I was struggling inside. The anger, confusion, and frustration built up inside me. Seemed like the more they tried to get me to go, the more I pushed away. There was definitely a war going on inside my mind. A battle over good and evil. And I had no weapons. No knowledge. No defenses.
Our youth of today are also left defenseless.
In the martial arts we teach our kids how to defend themselves. We give them the tools necessary to take care of themselves in a ground fighting situation or a standup situation. We teach them how to kick and punch and how to apply chokes and arm bars. When it comes to self-defense we give our children tools that are needed as they grow up in this violent world.
Why is it that we don’t give our kids the tools needed to fight the spiritual battle? OK, if you have no faith and believe in no higher power, then maybe this doesn’t apply to you. Those of us who have faith and try sincerely to have a relationship with God need to have the tools and knowledge to defend ourselves in the spiritual battle.
I wish I could say that when I changed my life 17 years ago, trying to live a life with Christ as my savior, that the spiritual battle I was facing as a child has all gone away. It has not. The difference is now I have the tools and weapons needed for victory. I now can handle the bad things that will inevitably happen in a person’s life.
Keep pushing forward my friends,